-escape-

all i want to do is to run away....
not from reality, not from anything or anyone at all..
i want to escape, from myself...
the one person in this world i cannot lie to....
the one person that i can't smile and pretend all's well....
the one person who is so sick and tired of knowing me too well...
the one person who i can't fool....

what can i do,
when all i want is to escape....
from the prison i created myself....
i don't yearn for freedom,
instead i chose to confine myself....
self inflicting my own pain...
crucifying my own soul....
tormenting my own sanity....

today is one of the days...
where i wished to be swallowed alive....
by the darkness of nothingness....
so that when i see light again,
i will be reborn....