-an odd sensation-

so far so good.....i can barely contain my excitement of being back in Italy again...the flight was perfect....all was great.....

weather is great and everything so colorful.....however....my body is reacting like its totally confused....suddenly cold, suddenly too hot....sigh...gonna get past this phase soon...

so this time around, i vowed to be completely touristy....to see everything with an open mind, and not feel like i will be around forever, so no hurry to capture the moment with my eyes or camera....God knows when i will be back again:(

its sweet to be back....however its only my second day back and i cant help but feel the odd sensation of incompetence....its always like this, why am i afraid to meet the eye of the lady who casts her suspicious glances from across the train? why do i feel like an invader? why do i feel ashamed when i cant reply questions? why do i fumble and panic when they check my i.d?

same old feeling of inferiority....but at the same time, enjoying being different....i would be lying if i say that i dont enjoy the curious looks and the harmless chatters from strangers.....

i meant to post some photos.....however realised that i cant find my card reader...well, will save that for later.....

april

its april....how could it be?

saturday afternoon.....stuck in office as the world rotates round and round....not that i am complaining...i do love every second of my job....as long as i don't get burn out....

however...i think chances are slim that i will be burnt out soon....a couple more days and i am outta here....time really do fly....when i booked my fight it seemed like i have to wait for an eternity for my trip.....now....it's here....and sigh...so many things i wished to do before leaving...but as usual...didn't materialise....due to 1. my lack of discipline 2. my bad time management skills

so....Italy....here i am...returning with a vengeance.....i am gonna appreciate this trip more than i ever did....for i know after this...would be really hard for me to just take off......

again....i am counting my blessings...not many people can just leave for 4 weeks....to the land of sunshine (i dont mean Malaysia)....spring.....finally i'll see those sunflower fields again:)