-monaco-

date taken : july 2009
location : monaco

A short day trip to Monaco, which i had high expectations at first, for it is always in my mind that it would somehow be the Palm Beach or Las Vegas of Europe....minus the flamboyance and extravagance.... however....it was definitely a letdown....a small city, so dense yet so lack of spirit....

Of course, the high amount of ports, luxury yachts ....posh cars.... also the continuous flow of helicopters transporting high profile people are overwhelming....however, the city itself doesn't reflect that at all.....it's a city stuck in the 70's... architecture is strictly LeCorbusier's machine metaphor....take no offense...i love LeCorb, but the city is really lack of maintenance......so contradicting with its high class profile.

well.....it's getting really late...to be continued...

-there i go again-

date taken : july 2009
location : gorbia

Here I am, back from a short trip, getting a little sunburnt...there is this torn inside, continuing to poke, taunt me, hurting, little by little....what am i doing here? I wish i could be more ignorant, to be able to just look past the acts of people around me....but what is worse is my weakness to stand up for myself....hurting myself even more, because i allowed myself to be stomped over again and again....

Friends, family and loved ones.....all seemed so far now....and it feels like being in a new place, it is impossible to find even one who could love and share relentlessly....maybe it is too much to ask....too ideal to even imagine it.....I am tired, really tired of the sense of betrayal....really tired of the scent of fakeness...i just want to go home, to where people who knew me all my life, will still care for me, for who i am.....and not for what they can get from me...

Please teach me, how i can stop being this fool....this fool who smiles and laughes even though she is dying inside....this fool who accepts deals that she knows is not to her best benefits....this fool who continues to treat others with decency, even though she feels like ripping their hearts.....what is happening to me?

me, and nobody else

date taken: december 2008



i miss the snow....i miss the calmness....the pureness that screams....IT'S ok to be alone! well....most of all i miss it because IT IS FREAKING HOT now!

-storefronts-

date taken : nov 2007
location : Madrid

Today i wanna puke at the fake smiles....all the pathetic empty words, what difference do they make? just like the storefront displays, void, expressionless...and meaningless.....well, at least mannequins were dressed up in style. Not like a slut, wrapped up in fake jewelries, screaming fashion wannabe......God, please forgive me, i am typing in rage.....so excuse my manners....

betrayal...of all sorts....the kind i hate most...when friends do it to you....drive me nuts.....but why do i never learn? always falling in the same trap...ignoring all signs of warnings...just diving in, with the belief that friends should watch each others' back...

sigh...i can't let one bad seed pollute me, but then...how about many many many? well....some people are just too in love with themselves to even know how to care.....it's all just an act.....the warm words of consolation, the supportive remarks.....nothing but an act.....

-same world, another time, another you, another me-

date taken : july 2009


how great is photoshop? transforming time and place..... my first attempt on heavier post processing work.....and then....got carried away....back in time....from the same photo, cropped and sent back to another time.....

date edited : july 2009

-love (repost)-

date taken : may 2009
by: me


a repost - love conquers all-

-another one bites the dust-

taken: 11 july 2009
model: Valeria



-and there she goes again-